Fear or Blessing

Fear or Blessing What if our greatest Blessings lie within our greatest Fears? What if, what God is asking of us will lead to our greatest Blessing? What if, what He is asking and what we Fear are one and the same? What would you do? You have no guarantee of the outcome. You have no way of knowing. Would you trust Him? Would I trust Him? Will I trust Him?  Earlier this year I was faced with this choice. He asked me, “Can you believe that I can do the impossible?, Can you Trust me to do the impossible?” The first thing I said was No, not a chance, no. The situation was over and done, I was moving on. But then I took a good look at myself, at my heart and realized I was Afraid to Trust Him with this. I didn’t believe He would, could or wanted to, so why would I Believe and Trust Him to do so. I guess in the end I didn’t believe that He Loves me like He says He does. Once I saw my response for what it was, Fear, I turned and faced off with it, determined to run it down and take it out. But I can’t take it out, I can’t take out the Fear, Only God can But I have to turn and face off with it. I have to be willing to do what He asks even if I fear to do so. Once I turn and face off with it all I’m called to do is Stand and be Still, be at Peace, for The Lord will fight the battle for me. But wait, some will say, you have to do something? Yes you’re right, Pray. If I do anything else, unless The Lord leads, I will be trying to control the situation. And with my tendency….Yeah Prayer is almost all I’m doing. Now I have No idea what the outcome of this will be, other than hopefully a greater trust and closer relationship with my Heavenly Father. Sure I want to see the impossible happen but only if The Lord sees fit to bring it about. My purpose is to Focus on Him and not the “impossibility”. Has it been easy, NO! Multiple times over But it has been Good. Even today was a Hard day but once I took the step He was asking, which was hard, the other side was Peaceful (not right away but it became so). The stretching rarely feels good but you know, at least afterwards, that it was a good thing.  So where does this leave me? Right where He wants me, completely dependent on Him. This is a new way for me but He is Faithful. And as a friend told me, reminded me, “God is the Lamp for my feet and a Light for my path. He’ll light my feet, which is just enough to take a step and then He’ll light my path”. You think of it, as long as I keep my eyes on Him, he is lighting my feet and my path, because looking at Him lights them up. So I don't even need to look at my feet or my path because He is leading me. Ha! Think of Waltzing! When I trust my dance partner to lead, all I have to do is look at him and he’ll take me across the floor! Ha! That’s what my Heavenly Father wants me to do, Look at him and let him dance me across the Floors of Trust, Faith, and Hope. Wow, I think that wraps it up.    So here I Stand. (I might be occasionally tossed by a wave and bounced off the sandy bottom but I plan to see this through, come what may.)